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Sooo many days hv passed since I was checked in2 the ‘C’ ward resort.. Its near the end of my Be-Moaning Trial @ the island (06 06 06) which could hv otherwise been used as a gd tourist resort since it has a cold spring & it is an island wif the perfect conditions for making a resort. Pulau Ubiquitous shud hv been used for the military purposes instead.

Anw, I’ve been buying new clothes, bags & everythg else wif my checking out every weekend.

I didn’t shoot any1 dead wif the real bullets (how I wish I could shoot sum disgusting ppl whom I hv 2live wif in tt hellhole), survived 7days in the jungle w/o bathing @ all (though I received regular mud spa treatments & experienced night safari omost every freaking nite in the jungle) (I oso realised wat soldiers r mainly trained 2do: Learn 2fight in their neighbouring countries’ conditions) & survived walking 16km wif heavy loads of rubbish on my back, shoulders & head. Tt resulted in me having an excruciating backache & dizziness.

I was oso refferred to 3 different types of specialists: Cardiologist, Neurologist, Skin Specialist. I’m finding it difficult to live in ‘c’ ward hospital like conditions, not 2mention cleaning the area & getting punished & cursed @ by uncouth ppl ard u. The worst part is tt many r accomdating to the culture there.. I cant imagine y certain ppl hv 2stoop SOOO low 2adapt properly. Wait, is there even a need to?

I heard tt I hv to go for a certain re-situational test 2c if I hv skills 2command ppl. Well, divas dun command ppl forcefully. Ppl r willing to serve & get commanded by the diva. The whole company in general (there r exceptions) made a joke of my migraine under sunlight. Well, let them mock @ me & think I’m malingering. The truth is, I noe tt the migraine is affecting me so badly tt I hv 2b excused sunlight. Such lifestyle is not for me. I need glaring stage lights, not harmful, UV-filled sunlight.

Fortunately, I hv XR & Benny 2bitch wif @ the company beside mine. If not, life @ the hellhole would hv been mundane (it actuali is).

I managed 2make me section commander emphatize wif my condition b’cos I reali need to get the migraine problem rooted in his head so he’ll take note of me.. Wat if I faint? Is the country gg 2pay if anythg happens 2me? (choi) So wat if u pay me those meagre hundreds of thousands? Tt amt would b the amt I spend on giving out Christmas presents every yr aft my university education!

Speaking of uni education, NIE has accepted me (to teach Chinese) while NTU has not gotten back 2me aft the interview for direct honours to sociology. SMU flatly rejected me (oh come on, I applied 2 ur university b’cos I was afraid tt there wouldn’t b enuf applications 2ur sch! NUS shud b deciding if I’m worth the entry in2 the faculty of Arts & Social Sciences. May the Lord bless me & let me receive the acceptance letter frm both NUS & NTU. I dun hv 2go back 2camp 2nite b’cos I need 2update my passport tml morning.

I’m hapi tt I meet other hapi ppl in my company & I oso expanded my circle of frens. I oso see more hapi artises etc ard these days. At CityLink, I saw Michelle Chia, Adam Chen & Ben Yeo representing Citispa.

*Sigh* Its sooo boring.. Life gets sooo meaningless wen my aims get thwarted. I wan 2continue wif my passion for the social sciences & I wan 2b a renowned makeup artist (Haha) & live a luxurious lifestyle wif the 1 I love. Joining high-society life again is more like my life. I guess tt’s more like my life rather than being ard uncouth, uncultured, unlearned ppl hu tink they’re very gd but in fact hv nuthg > a few hundred $, living life day-by-day aimlessly. I believe I will make it, by hook or by crook.